youtube or no youtube

this morning when i first access to internet i found that Youtube is blocked.
the moment when a bad word came out from my mouth
i have a lots of thoughts running in my minds and thus inspired me to post something
in the last month
i spent a great amount of time sitting in front of my laptop
for my assignment (it is not so true)
on YOUTUBE...
Basketball mixs, sneakers reviews, music videos, beatles, pranks, mr beans, creepy ghost videos, funny ads...
fade away pullups of KObe is spectacular, crossovers of ROSE IS so fascinating, videos of beatles are so touching and inspiring and all the best songs of all time, i just wont get bored with Mr Bean and the funny pranks just keep my mouth laughing........................ i just cant stop browsing Youtube
all these videos have made my free time colorful
And i got a new software from my friends (internet download manager) a super downloader of videos, somemore i m kind of collector, i have downloaded lots of videos but till the level that i need a hard drive
this is awesome to have youtube

However behind the awesomeness is awfulness
that is i got addicted
Every time i access to internet i first checkout my list of "videos of interests" then start searching and enjoying for hours. And i wont forget to downloads them, i will also spend some time arranging these videos into right folders, categorizing them. half more hour gone.
as a student i am supposed to study all my subjects and chapters before entering lectures and tutorials, this is what i told my twice every year (1year got 2 semesters)
ESPECIALLY last month, it was actually so heavy for me, Sukad basketball, midterms, assignments, life savings.... even though i am not a super ambitious guy but i still believe that i like things to be in order and i dont like a messy life. however i cant deny that i am still not mature in dealing tough time, in a tight schedule i will mess up my tables and beds and even my time tables. Because when i focus on 1 thing, it will be quite difficult for me to handle the rests. when every when 1 task is done, i told myself to relax before beginning the coming one and started to indulge myself again and youtube serves me the best when i need a brake.

sigh!!! if i could utilise the time i wasted on Youtube, i will have time to be careful, to care those people i care around me. to catch up my study, to clean up my stuffs, to have my time managed, to call my mother, to update what happen around the world, to wash my colth daily (to save RM 3), to plan my expenses, to keep in touch with my friends (there are not much should be easy), should listen more news on english FM, to learn how to earn extra pocket money, there are actually a lots i could do if i stop YouTubing... this is me, can i change myself? or i will just let this habit goes on because i am born this way? sure i can change myself, because i dont believe in fate, but i believe i am steering my life my fate.

ok now!! conclusion, i have made up my mind, i dont wanna degenerate anymore, i wanna wake up.
ok before this go for some videos first.... shit.... blocked....
ok la... go steer life la me

listen up all you road drivers

Today i took an hour to reach my home from my office
the reason is what?
sure it's because of traffic jam
friday ma, many people going back to home town...
(the route i take is linked to the highway)
when i got nothing to do in the jam i realized something...
actually there are only 2 places got the worst jam
and the road structure are same as bellow:


                         ## __TF__                    
                      l        l        l
                      l  X   l        l
                    / l        l        l
                  /   l        l        l
                /     l        l        l
              /       l        l        l
             l        l        l        l
             l        l        l        l
             l        l        l        l
             l        l        l        l
             l        l        l        l
 _____  l        l        l        l
   +                 l        l        l
               1st   2nd   3rd

this look like a simple road right
1st lane is for vehicle that turning from lane
majority of the drivers were heading to ##, i m also one of them
meaning to say we were using 2nd lane
but the fact is that most of us, inpatient road users
since the movement in the 2nd that we are supposed to be in is so slow
so they scrambling and cutting  to 1st and 3rd lane and finally all cars were stuck in spot X
i was a bit annoyed
because the way they drive were too fierce
they wouldn't even give up a tiny, narrow little place

and i personally and strongly think that
if all of us be patient and using the right lane patiently
the flow would be dramatically faster than what it was
some more in absence of the risk of getting our cars scratched

haiz....

drive carefully

today i saw an accident in the journey back to my house after playing badminton.
i think we should really be patient and careful when driving
because accident can happen any time
if you by the rules and drive steadily , don't rush
you can decrease your chance to encounter an accident
if you accelerate and cut lanes too often
you may only be 5 to 10 minutes earlier to get to your destiny
i think that this saved 5 to 10 minutes really doesn't matter much
if you are heading to your office ,please try to get up 5 yo 10 minutes earlier in the morning
and if you are on your way home, please remember that you have no strong reason to cut your time

keep in your mind that there are people you care for you and you care for
and try to imagine all the bothering, time consuming, troublesome, regretful subsequent stuff following a traffic accident ( i mean the quarreling, lodging report, court cases, medical treatment, insurance claiming, feeling of guilt in the case of taking someone's life........etc)

so ladies and gentlemen, folks and dudes. please drive carefully

29/12/2010

yesterday after the tax class feel that the Mr Ang gili still the same patern
so have to fight but cant depend on him again
however the IB looks easier
just only every week to prepare for tutorial presentation lo
the lecturer of laycs lecturer seems not bad also
i went to swim but she didnt agree because thought that i should have some rest
even to some extent made her upset
thanks baby but i m fine la haha
then we lunch together and had some talk
some "deep" talk
after i fetched her back and on the way back bakti she suddenly say want to hang around herself
i faster rushed back to saujana to accompany her lo
got bf still need hang out alone meh?

28/12/2010

today terribly feel that som sucks
wanna charge me RM 50 for adding course
luckily i was not a pig
my girl fiend is so ambitious
but SOM and Mr Ang failed him lo
later on went prangin with room mate
he said want to change to my hair style
but in the end he took other style and regretted ( he doesnt like short hair de)
and i bought a pair of new slippers as my gf urged me to buy a new one
so cheap and i like it
the rest of the day just nothing to do
relax and take some to prepare for new semester lo

life saving

i hv enrolled in life saving...
it's an opportunity of learning...
learning sth that can be useful in our life esp in emergency...
i still dont have the spirit of life saver... saving life....
the first thing came to my mind was to brush up my swimming skills...(but i got more)
and now i see it as a chance for me to train myself...
i am not talking bout physically but mentally..
i m always aware of my own dirrection (wat shud i do, wat am i supposed to be)
i m confident on that...
but the problem is
ppl tend to be lazy...
that is i konw wat to do but i am not persistent enough...

through life saving i realise sth
all the thing is about mentality...
and actually we have control over our mentality...
when i say yes and my body says no...
this is when i usually stop....
but in fact when my body says no but that i m still capable
i hv the control to make my body YES
that means to be persistent, we have to push ourself...
i think this is wat makes ppl different.
the power of controlling ur mental...

lets say....
when i was swiming a new stroke...
i used to stop every once when i was tired and thought that that was my limit...
during the training session, my instructor wants us to swing for bout 1000 m (the updated one)
not much rest pun.... i never even think of it before to swim one km almost continously...
but now i found that when we force ourself we can really do it...
even though ur body will suggest u to stop...
and the relief after forcing ourself is much more comfortable...
and i think this rule can be applied in mny aspects in our lives...
so if u really want, and the target makes logic then you will hit it...

hopefully i will really seriously stick to it... this lesson... of life saving to me...

rookie blogger

this is my 1st ever time to blog
i knew blog but just never have any interest to check out wat is it bout
i m a kinda slow esp in term of IT
dont like tech stuff much
my 1st exposure to blog was reading my gf's blog
and i found that it is quite nice to express online bout whatever stuff
some share of thought or information
actually just nowadays people blogging
just dun wanna be left behind too far
and
i m a 21 year old uni sutdent
that i think i should do wat other ppl like me do

briefly introduce myself
i love my family ( i owe them too much)
i love layc (its not easy to be in love)
i love myself
i love friends
i love basket ball (shooting but not game, and KOBE), ( my commitment to it is getting fewer)

i m kind (in fact not brave enough)
i m honest (too "straight")
i m generous (but stingy to myself)
i m hardworking (if i m really interested)
i m obedient ( sure i wanna be)
i m friendly (but prefer alone)
i m decisive (is a lie)
i m ambitious ( should be i "was")
i m caring ( also i wanna be)

thats all bout me
hopefully i would update this regularly...