youtube or no youtube

this morning when i first access to internet i found that Youtube is blocked.
the moment when a bad word came out from my mouth
i have a lots of thoughts running in my minds and thus inspired me to post something
in the last month
i spent a great amount of time sitting in front of my laptop
for my assignment (it is not so true)
on YOUTUBE...
Basketball mixs, sneakers reviews, music videos, beatles, pranks, mr beans, creepy ghost videos, funny ads...
fade away pullups of KObe is spectacular, crossovers of ROSE IS so fascinating, videos of beatles are so touching and inspiring and all the best songs of all time, i just wont get bored with Mr Bean and the funny pranks just keep my mouth laughing........................ i just cant stop browsing Youtube
all these videos have made my free time colorful
And i got a new software from my friends (internet download manager) a super downloader of videos, somemore i m kind of collector, i have downloaded lots of videos but till the level that i need a hard drive
this is awesome to have youtube

However behind the awesomeness is awfulness
that is i got addicted
Every time i access to internet i first checkout my list of "videos of interests" then start searching and enjoying for hours. And i wont forget to downloads them, i will also spend some time arranging these videos into right folders, categorizing them. half more hour gone.
as a student i am supposed to study all my subjects and chapters before entering lectures and tutorials, this is what i told my twice every year (1year got 2 semesters)
ESPECIALLY last month, it was actually so heavy for me, Sukad basketball, midterms, assignments, life savings.... even though i am not a super ambitious guy but i still believe that i like things to be in order and i dont like a messy life. however i cant deny that i am still not mature in dealing tough time, in a tight schedule i will mess up my tables and beds and even my time tables. Because when i focus on 1 thing, it will be quite difficult for me to handle the rests. when every when 1 task is done, i told myself to relax before beginning the coming one and started to indulge myself again and youtube serves me the best when i need a brake.

sigh!!! if i could utilise the time i wasted on Youtube, i will have time to be careful, to care those people i care around me. to catch up my study, to clean up my stuffs, to have my time managed, to call my mother, to update what happen around the world, to wash my colth daily (to save RM 3), to plan my expenses, to keep in touch with my friends (there are not much should be easy), should listen more news on english FM, to learn how to earn extra pocket money, there are actually a lots i could do if i stop YouTubing... this is me, can i change myself? or i will just let this habit goes on because i am born this way? sure i can change myself, because i dont believe in fate, but i believe i am steering my life my fate.

ok now!! conclusion, i have made up my mind, i dont wanna degenerate anymore, i wanna wake up.
ok before this go for some videos first.... shit.... blocked....
ok la... go steer life la me

listen up all you road drivers

Today i took an hour to reach my home from my office
the reason is what?
sure it's because of traffic jam
friday ma, many people going back to home town...
(the route i take is linked to the highway)
when i got nothing to do in the jam i realized something...
actually there are only 2 places got the worst jam
and the road structure are same as bellow:


                         ## __TF__                    
                      l        l        l
                      l  X   l        l
                    / l        l        l
                  /   l        l        l
                /     l        l        l
              /       l        l        l
             l        l        l        l
             l        l        l        l
             l        l        l        l
             l        l        l        l
             l        l        l        l
 _____  l        l        l        l
   +                 l        l        l
               1st   2nd   3rd

this look like a simple road right
1st lane is for vehicle that turning from lane
majority of the drivers were heading to ##, i m also one of them
meaning to say we were using 2nd lane
but the fact is that most of us, inpatient road users
since the movement in the 2nd that we are supposed to be in is so slow
so they scrambling and cutting  to 1st and 3rd lane and finally all cars were stuck in spot X
i was a bit annoyed
because the way they drive were too fierce
they wouldn't even give up a tiny, narrow little place

and i personally and strongly think that
if all of us be patient and using the right lane patiently
the flow would be dramatically faster than what it was
some more in absence of the risk of getting our cars scratched

haiz....

drive carefully

today i saw an accident in the journey back to my house after playing badminton.
i think we should really be patient and careful when driving
because accident can happen any time
if you by the rules and drive steadily , don't rush
you can decrease your chance to encounter an accident
if you accelerate and cut lanes too often
you may only be 5 to 10 minutes earlier to get to your destiny
i think that this saved 5 to 10 minutes really doesn't matter much
if you are heading to your office ,please try to get up 5 yo 10 minutes earlier in the morning
and if you are on your way home, please remember that you have no strong reason to cut your time

keep in your mind that there are people you care for you and you care for
and try to imagine all the bothering, time consuming, troublesome, regretful subsequent stuff following a traffic accident ( i mean the quarreling, lodging report, court cases, medical treatment, insurance claiming, feeling of guilt in the case of taking someone's life........etc)

so ladies and gentlemen, folks and dudes. please drive carefully